| Location | Attleborough, Norfolk |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Virus |
| Date of Birth | 30/04/2009 |
| Date of Death | 30/04/2009 |
| Visitors | 3,010 since 08/05/2009 |
| Creator |
Dear Charlie
I found out I was pregnant with you at the beginning of January 2009, we'd started trying for a baby
a month before and I was due to give blood but knew I couldn't if I was pregnant. The pregnancy test
confirmed what I already knew, I was pregnant. We were so excited, I couldn't wait to give Matthew a
little brother or sister.
Your first scan was on 20th February, we took Matthew with us. He was fidgeting but as soon as you
came up on the screen he sat still and stared at you. We were so happy to see you bouncing about
inside of me and quickly told all our family and friends the exciting news. They were all really
happy for us. We bought you a car seat, a bouncy chair and a bath seat so you could enjoy baths with
your big brother.
Your second scan was booked for 24th April and I couldn't wait for the day to come so I could see
you again. As soon as the scan started it was obvious something was wrong, you were curled up in a
ball very still. I held my breath and prayed everything would be ok but soon we heard the dreaded
words 'I'm sorry there's no heartbeat'. We were devastated, all our dreams and plans shattered in
just those few seconds.
We were left alone for a while and then a doctor came to see us. She said I'd need to take a tablet
to help start the labour, it all felt too quick and we arranged to go back to the hospital in a few
days. Those next few days we tried to keep busy, the pain of losing you was too hard to bear. We
went back to the hospital a few days later and I took the tablet, I was booked in to be induced two
days later.
The following day we took Matthew to Great Yarmouth, to the Sea Life Centre. We didn't want to sit
around at home and knew Matthew would love a day out. We tried to stay happy for Matthew, but it was
hard when all day I kept thinking about you still inside me.
I woke up on Thursday 30th April very wet and realised I was covered in blood. Your Nanny came to
look after Matthew and we rushed to hospital. The labour was quick and you were born at 8.15 that
morning. The midwife rushed you away and cleaned you up, she brought you to us in a little basket
covered with a blanket. You were small but perfect with your tiny fingers and toes, I was scared to
touch you in case I damaged your little body.
We were kept in hospital the rest of the day, I'd lost a lot of blood. The chaplain visited us to
speak about the funeral and a doctor spoke to us about a post mortem. We wanted to know what had
happened to you so agreed to a full post mortem. I couldn't bear the thought of you being buried
after that so we decided to have you cremated. We were warned that as you were so small there may be
no ashes, so we decided to plant a tree in your memory.
The tree we chose for you is called a Red Robin and has beautiful red leaves. We've planted the
tree in a pot in our garden so should we ever move house we can take it with us, the pot we chose is
red to match the leaves on the tree. We had a plaque made up to stand in front of the tree, the
plaque reads 'Charlie Taylor, Born an Angel, 30th April 2009, Forever in our Hearts'.
Your funeral was held on 19th May, it was the hardest day of my life. We had a quiet service which
just me and your daddy attended. Daddy carried your tiny coffin into the crematorium and I laid
three white roses on top, one each from me, Daddy and Matthew. The chaplain read some poems we'd
chosen and we played 'somewhere over the rainbow'. It was a beautiful service.
On 22nd June we returned to the hospital for your post mortem results. I was nervous going back as
I'd been over things so many times in my head, had I done something wrong? Was it my fault?
At 15 weeks I'd caught a sickness bug, we were told this was a virus that most people catch as a
child and become immune. I'd missed it as a child so when Matthew brought it home from nursery I
also caught it. We were told that had you survived you would have been severly disabled. At 17 weeks
I'd heard your heartbeat at my midwife appointment, it wouldn't have been long after this that you
grew your angel wings.
Your due date would have been 8th September. On this day we released 21 balloons to represent the 21
precious weeks that I carried you. I chose a mix of white, pale blue and dark blue. I hope they
reached you and hope you liked them.
I want you to know you will never be forgotten, each year on 30th April we plan to send a balloon up
to heaven to you. Matthew will know he has a little brother called Charlie who lives up with the
stars.
It is so hard to think we will never get to meet you, see your first smile or first laugh. I hope
wherever you are you are happy and know that you are loved so very much.
All my love forever and always Mummy xxx
We couldn't wait to hold you
And see your pretty face.
To count you little fingers,
And check your toes are in their place.
It should have been the happiest day
To remember all our life.
But joy had turned to heartache,
No breath, no beat, no life.
We will never see you smile,
Or hear your hearty cry.
We will never be able to dry your tears,
Or share your happy times.
Our precious little Angel,
We will always know your face.
In our hearts and stars forever,
You will always have a place.
(Author unknown)
My broken heart..
Will never mend
So lots of kisses..
I shall send
We think of you..
In a better place
With beautiful wings..
And a smile on your face
Every day is a struggle you see
Trying to cope..
So please help me
How do I cope?
I do not know
My heart is broken..
So that goes to show
I can't accept you are gone
I need you here..
Please keep me strong
Stay by my side..
Show me the way
Help me to cope every day
I love and miss you so much..
And I always will
Since you have been gone..
Time has stood still
I think of you in heaven..
With Gods Angels up above
Please my precious Angel..
Watch over me with love
copyright� Jackie Thomas 01/08/09
Having you not with me
Hurts more and more each day
Although I feel a closeness
In a very special way
Even as I go to sleep
Every thought is of you
And I never thought i'd miss you
In quite the way I do
So i'm hoping that these words
May some how let you know
That you're in my heart forever
And i'll always love you so
The one and only thing
That helps me with the pain
Is dreaming of the time
When I will see you once again...
(Author Unknown)
Heaven (Author Unknown)
If we could visit heaven
Even for a day
Maybe for a moment
The pain would go away
I'd put my arms around you
And whisper words so true
That living life without you
Is the hardest thing to do
No matter how we spend our days
No matter what we do
No morning dawns or evening falls
When we don't think of you
Just For A Moment (Author Unknown)
Our hands have touched, our paths have crossed,
A Love is gained, a Love is lost,
Just for a moment I kissed the face,
Of an innocent child I can't replace.
Just for a moment a maternal touch,
Would say the words that meant so much,
A soft caress, the gentle tears,
That made those minutes last for years.
Just for a moment, I held you hand,
My broken Heart in your command,
So much to tell you, so little time,
Why were we punished, what was the crime?
They took part of me when they took you away,
As much as I Loved you, you weren't meant to stay,
I gave you a hug that for always must last,
As facing the future means leaving the past.
Our Souls have merged, I live for you,
Perhaps I'm living your life too,
I will carry on, I can always stand tall,
Because just for that moment, I had it all.
I Love And Miss You Everyday
to my mother
I see you each time you shed a tear,
I catch it and kiss you, I hope that you know that I'm near.
This place is so beautiful, There's so much to see!
I know that someday you'll be here with me.
The angels were singing when I arrived!
Jesus was there with His arms open wide!
The snow and the rain are just my confetti.
I know you'll be coming and I want to be ready.
When you feel the wind, it's me walking by.
I can run and skip now, I can even fly!
When the blossoms and leaves fall into your hair,
It's me planting kisses, yes, I put them there!
The birds are singing to keep you company,
They're especially for you with love from me.
I know that you miss me and feel so alone,
Until the great day when you finally come home
Please remember as the seasons change from one to another,
I'll always love you. You're my friend and my mother.
Dawn Mitchell 1998
I can't reach out to comfort you or hold your tiny hand,
The precious dreams i held can't be filled the way I planned,
Sometimes i say a little prayer in hope, perhaps I might,
Have one last chance to tuck you in before I say goodnight,
So much I would of shared with you but as we had to part,
There's just an empty silence echoes in my heart.
(Author Unknown)
10TH NOVEMBER 2009
♥
~Life Beyond ~
Let them go, but not completely.
Hold on to them, but not too tightly.
Love them as you know you will,
as you always have.
Rejoice that they are well, the only difference
now is that you cannot see them,
But you feel them still and they will always be with you.
The spirit does not die as the body dies
and Love is of the spirit.
Nothing you have experienced together can be taken from you.
And your loved one shall be eternally yours in that love.
Weep not too long, that they may also cry,
But rejoice in their life and in yours also.
Let yours continue to be a celebration of all life; of your shared love,
Knowing that God holds you both in the palm of his hand
And in loving you both shall reunite you.
~~ Author Unknown.~~
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Tributes For Week Starting 9th November
FOR MONDAY
Your presence I miss,
Your memory I treasure,
Loving you always,
Forgetting you never.
FOR TUESDAY
Loving you is easy,
We do it every day,
Missing you is a heartache,
That never goes away.
FOR WEDNESDAY
No farewell words were spoken,
No time to say goodbye,
You were gone before we knew it,
And only God can tell us why.
FOR THURSDAY
Memory is a lovely lane,
Where hearts are ever true,
A lane I so often travel down,
Because it leads to you.
FOR FRIDAY
Wings Of The Angels
A gentle wind blew cross the land
Reaching out to take a hand
For on the winds the angels came
Calling out a mother's name.
Left behind, the children's tears
Loving memories of the years
Of joy and love, a life well spent
And now to God a mother's sent.
On angel's wings, a heavenly flight
The journey home, towards the light
To those who weep, a life is gone
But in God's love, 'tis but the dawn.
FOR SATURDAY
If I Had One Last Day
If I had one last day
To tell you what's inside
I'd tell you that I'm sorry
For all the times I've lied
I'd tell you that I need you
To hold my hand today
I'd tell you that I love you
I'd ask you, please, to stay
You'd look at me and smile
The way you always would
And say "I'd love to stay,
If only I really could"
Then you'd laugh the way you did
Whenever I was blue
You'd wipe my tears and whisper softly,
"Don't cry, I love you too"
If I had one last day
I'd love you from the start
I'd stop hiding how I feel
I'd say what's in my heart
If I had one last day,
I'd say my last good-bye
And that even though you are far away,
In my heart, you'll never die.
FOR SUNDAY
Cry Not My Friend
When you wake up tomorrow
And I am no where to be found
When you scream out my name
To the emptiness around
When every beat inside your heart
Is skipping and unsure
Cry not my friend for I am here,
Inside your love so pure
When the waves that used to touch our feet
Have gone back out to sea
When everything you once held dear
Was lost when you lost me
When the sun that once lit up your face
Is setting far away
Cry not my Friend for time shall pass,
But my love for you will stay
When age arrives and children play
And pain creeps up on you
When loved ones show you happiness
That your life never knew
When all of your expectations are met,
No matter what the pain
Cry not my friend, for I am waiting
To hold you once again
When beauty in your eyes turn grey
And all of the rainbow, white
When strong undying hearts
No longer feel an urge to fight
When winter snows become more pain
Than beauty in your heart
Cry not my friend, for I am here
And we will never ever part
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Thoughts Today, Memories Forever
Angela Christopher’s Very Proud Mum
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There is a special Angel in Heaven that is part of me.
It is not where I wanted him but where God wanted him to be.
He was here but just a moment, like a night time shooting star.
And though he is in Heaven, he isn't very far.
He touched the heart of many like only an Angel can do.
So I send this special message to the Heaven up above.
Please take care of my Angel and send him all my love.
xx
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